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[26 Nov 2005|01:24am]
omfg! today was fukin insane so we go to see my dad(hes in the hospital) then donna tells me to get dressed nice i was so depressed that i didnt get to go to megaton so i thought she was just trying to just cheer me up...!! OMFG!! she surprised me with two tickets to MEGATON!!! it was so insane.. best gift ever.. i had so much fun!!
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-eep- [20 Nov 2005|12:31am]
lalalala...
im happy today there is so much shit going on but im ok... this too shall pass.
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[02 Nov 2005|05:16pm]
i might be moving..
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[15 Oct 2005|11:44pm]
omfg omfg omfg i told him eep!
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[01 Sep 2005|10:15am]
[ mood | sore ]

i got my hoop finallly my nose how i always wanted it... yay.. well yeah school is starting time to go back to the hell we call our lives..

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dear dear diary [09 Aug 2005|08:57am]
[ mood | sad ]

dear dear diary i wanna tell my secrets cuz ur the only one that ill know who'll keep them..dear diary i know ull keep them so this is what ive done. ive been a bad bad girl for so long, i dont know how to change what went wrong,was daddy's little girl, but he went away..ive been down every road you could go,ive made some bad choices as you know. seems i got this whole world cradled in my hands, but its just like not to understand..dear dear diary iw anna tell my secrets.cuz ur the only one that i know who keeps them, ive been a bad bad girl..i learned my lessons young..i turned myself around..ive got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder, shes been watching over me..dear dear diary i wanna tell my secrets..i know you'll keep them this is what ive done..

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survey i jacked from julz [08 Aug 2005|09:17pm]
TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: tawnie
Birthday: august 10
Birthplace: downey, Ca.
Current Location: my house
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown with some highlights
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: Latina
The Shoes You Wore Today: My Sandals
Your Weakness: breathing on me
Your Fears: being alone
Your Perfect Pizza: Pepperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: graduate
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up: fuck,here we go again
Your Best Physical Feature: my lips
Your Bedtime: when i feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory: my grandmother
Pepsi or Coke: DEFINITELY PEPSI
MacDonalds or Burger King: jack in the box
Single or Group Dates: single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: cappuccino
Do you Smoke: not anymore
Do you Swear: yes
Do you Sing: yes
Do you Shower Daily: always
Have you Been in Love: yes
Do you want to go to College: no
Do you want to get Married: yes
Do you believe in yourself: sometimes
Do you get Motion Sickness:no
Do you think you are Attractive: umm yeha...no
Are you a Health Freak: no
Do you get along with your Parents: yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
Do you play an Instrument : I play the drums
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: please i invented drunk
Ever been called a Tease: yea
Ever been Beaten up: no
Ever Shoplifted: hahaha..yeah..of course not
How do you want to Die: bungy jumping
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: everything
In a Boy/Girl..
Favorite Eye Color: green
Favorite Hair Color: black
Short or Long Hair: short
Height: taller than me
Weight: The weight they should be at for their height.
Best Clothing Style: punks/skaters

Number of Drugs I have taken: hahahaha
Number of CDs I own: tons..
Number of Piercing: 4
Number of Tattoos: 2
Number of things in my Past I Regret: don't let the past dictate who u are but let it have something to do with who you will become.
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[03 Aug 2005|09:40pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: The Emancipation of Mimi
Year: 2005
Title: Your Girl

See, I used to be so shy
Sit at home and fantasize
(I should be your girl)
But I ain't wastin' no more time
Cause I've got to make you mine

[chorus]
I'm gonna make you want to
Get with me tonight
I'm gonna put those naughty
Thoughts into your mind
I'm gonna show you clearly
I can rock your world
You're gonna know for sure
That I should be your girl

See I used to be afraid
But now baby I can't wait
I just gotta have your love
And enough's enough's enough

[chorus]
I'm gonna make you want to
Get with me tonight
I'm gonna put those naughty
Thoughts into your mind
I'm gonna show you clearly
I can rock your world
You're gonna know for sure
That I should be your girl





Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: The Emancipation of Mimi
Year: 2005
Title: Shake It Off

[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
Shake you off

By the time you get this message
It's gonna be too late
So don't bother paging me
Cause I'll be on my way
See I grabbed all my diamonds and clothes
Just ask your mama she knows
You're gonna miss me, baby
Hate to say I told you so
Well at first I didn't know
But now it's clear to me
You would cheat with all your freaks
And lie compulsively
So I packed up my Louis Vuitton
Jumped in your ride and took off
You'll never ever find a girl
Who loves you more than me

[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off

[bridge]
I gotta shake, shake, shake, shake, shake it off [repeat]

I found out about a gang
Of your dirty little deeds
With this one and that one
By the pool, on the beach, in the streets
Heard y'all was
Hold up, my phone's breakin' up
I'ma hang up and call the machine right back
I gotta get this off of my mind
You wasn't worth my time
So, I'm leaving you behind
Cause I need a real love in my life
Save this recording because
I'm never coming back home
Baby, I'm gone
Don't cha know

[chorus]
I gotta shake you off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake you off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake you off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciated all the love I give
Boy, I gotta shake you off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby, and that means I gotta
Shake you off

Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: The Emancipation of Mimi
Year: 2005
Title: Stay the Night

You're kissing me
And saying I'm the one you need
To keep you warm
And lay with you tonight
Baby, I feel the same way
I don't want to leave
Wanna hold you close
And feel your love inside
But I don't wanna play myself
Cause I know you're with someone else
And I don't need complications in my life
And I don't wanna fall back in
And get caught up in you again
Boy, I'm so conflicted in my mind

[chorus]
You keep saying stay the night
Just let me rock you till the morning light
It's cold outside
And much too late to drive
You know I need you, baby
I'm so lost without your love

Obviously, procrastinating just to be
Close to you a little longer now
It's hard for me to break away from you, baby
Never could resist you
And I still haven't learned how
And I don't want to be a fool
But it's hard when it comes to you
And I'm feeling vulnerable tonight
Cause I don't want to miss the chance
Of reliving our sweet romance
Boy, I'm so confused down deep inside

[chorus]
You keep saying stay the night
Just let me rock you til the morning light
It's cold outside
And much too late to drive
You know I need you, baby
I'm so lost without your love

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reoffender.. [24 Jul 2005|09:29am]
[ mood | crappy ]

foolin my selfish heart, going throught the motions. but im foolin myself..and say ur sorry and do it again. everything thinks u will,everybody waits to watch her fall apart, fall under your spell. but ur foolin urself.

you say u love me, but u do it again,u say ur sorry but u do it again.

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to eric.. [21 Jul 2005|09:05am]
[ mood | sad ]

You call yesterday tap basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to feel similarly
And led you to believe I was O.K.
To just walk away from the thing
That's unyielding and scared to me

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't
got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say: "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

Rap 1 Wish Bone
Rap 2 Krayzie Bone
Rap 3 Wish Bone
Rap 4 Krayzie Bone

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

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sigh [13 Jun 2005|09:10pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

i dont know what to write..im so bored..so many things are going on..im tiredim gonna go..

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uggh.. [08 Jun 2005|04:46pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

so many things are going on in my life..ugh....kill me.

skyly

u know i just want to say that: everyone who told me about u before and during our friendship were right all this time and im so sorry that i let it drag on this way. u know i look and look for anything good about you but there really isnt and yeat i still feel i have to keep you. but thats it, honestly im done. im throwing in the towel...and dont worry karma's a bitch so u'll be getting urs...u are or were a good person. get over the fact that ur putting on a show for people and like urself for URSELF not for who ur acting like and u might fnd the great friend i loved. that friend will always have a place in my heart.


toni

its been so long since we've talked and i feel like im losing two great people in my life, my best friend and my sister.. u were both . i miss u so much and i want to know whats going on with you..i miss you sweety. ihope everything is well. u know the funny thing? i still feel super close...i love u girl



julisa

damn girl u are always there when i need u, well most of the time.. and u always know what to say, well sometimes.. and u are always on time.well cp time..lol im kidding girl i love u and i dont know where i would do without you..lol well look at jennifer.id probably be her.. i love u girl.. i'll see u saturday..


charlie

baby u are always there and you dont know how much i love u. i have made some bad choices in life and u know that.. and i love u and i want u in my life and its just like me to not understand what that means...why do u always do this to me? why couldn't u see through me?how come u act like u just dont care at all..i can feel u near me even though ur far away..i feel u baby. its not suppose to feel this way. its not suppose to hurt this way. i need u more and more each day.tell me. are you and me still together? tell me,u think we can last forever?tell me why..hey..listen to what were not saying.lets play a different game than what were playiing. try to look at me and really see my heart. do u expect me to let us fall apart?its not suppose to feel this way.. i need u more and more each day.i feel u baby, and its not suppose to hurt this way..i love u babe..

ok i think my moment is over..lol

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[07 Jun 2005|10:25am]
eep.
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[01 Jun 2005|07:15pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

one day ull see me but only when your dreaming

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eminem the best father in the world [31 May 2005|04:07pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

my mom went to court with my dad today..
i feel like the worlds on my shoulders..its so heavy i just feel like dropping everything..
sometimes i think im crazy, that there's nothing to live for.
people make jokes cuz they dont understand me . they just dont see my real side. i act like shit dont fase me , but inside im going crazy,sometimes it feels like the worlds on my shoulders and everyones leaning on me, sometimes it feels like the worlds almost over....i know my dads done some shit in his day, but she makes its seem like hes's this evil guy and he's not..

i just wanna take this time out to be perfectly honest, cuz theres a lot of shit i keep bottled up ..
inside of my soul..and just know i grow cold the older i grow. this boulder on my shoulder get heavy and harder to hold,this load is like the weight of the world and my neck is hurting...

ok now that i sed that(thanks eminem lol) i really am going crazy..i just break down and cry sometimes , i dont know why...i feel like no one really knows what is making sense in my head and i dont want them to know...i feel like i have to put a face on for everyone and i just wish the world would end..and i keep getting older, and i have so much pride in myself and my really close friends cause look at us guys, we are so strong, and everything makes sense when i see your guyses happiness in your eyes...i love you guys..and so much weight has been lifted everytime i se how happy u guys are, and nothing can take that from me.thank you guys for everything, if u ever need anything ill be right here,and im not going anywhere i love u!

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[26 May 2005|11:35pm]

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Name
Age
Do you love the sea?
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What
You are a Sweet Mermaid
Your tail color is Sea Green
You live in At the far end of a dark cave, in deep, dark waters
You will marry A Sea Turtle
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Swimming ability - 54%
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[25 May 2005|11:09pm]


SADIE
S is for Sensual
A is for Animated
D is for Deep
I is for Industrious
E is for Enjoyable


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life is so good [07 May 2005|01:52pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

charlie

you know everything is going so well in my life right now. i am so happy. i couldnt be anymore content. i love my boyfriend CHARLIE he is so great he makes me feel so good about myself. u like things i never thought i could love about myself i do.. things i never even saw in myself i do and its all because of u baby..CHARLIE u are my reason for living right now and i dont know what i would do without baby...finally were together..and u were so worth waiting for...i cant wait to see u...i love u CHARLIE u are so great. thank you for everything

i love u baby

penelope

hey girl...damn we sure have gone through a lot together huh?>PENNY u are my sister,my best friend and i dont know whati would without u. you keep me alive and going...theres never a dull moment when were together. damn >PENNY i love u so much..and there are no words to describe the happiness u bring me. thank you i love you girl...amd im so happy that u got ur guy..u guys were made for eachother and im so happy that u guys just ahh ur great together...congradulations ?>PENNY...i'll be seeing you.

were two crazy cats..ilova u billy hoe

joogee

damn..look what jennifer is missing out on..lol >julz girl i love you.. and u and my cousin are so sweet together..but this isnt about him ...this is about me and you...>julz u and me we're those girls on the banger sisters(no i didnt forget about u penny ur in this too ;)) we're so oposite but u and me are the exact same at the same time..we have been through all our stages...together apart but always there for eachother..and that will never change thank you for everything that you have helped me with u'll never know how much that all means to me..>julz we're crazy together and thats never gonna change... i love u..

i would cross an ocean for you

grandpa

what to say what to say.....>steve u are such a great guy..u are smart and crazy and loving and caring..and i could go on for days...ur insecurities and fears (which u've helped us all with ours)are just more to add to great person u are..ur so wonderful>steve
i dont even know what else to say.. u know so much about me and have helped me through so much..i might not show it all the time but i love u..u are like a big brother to me..and im sorry that i act stupid sometimes..but hey that why u love me right? lol...u are so great >steve and i am so happy that u got ur happy fairy tale..after everything u went through look u got the girl..i hope u guys are always happy..i love u man.

"i can drive faster than you granpa" lol good times



raulito


damn boy..is there anythign we havent done or gone through together?lol..u are my heart dude..you are everything that i need in a guy,a brother,a dad, a friend.. raul> you are so great...we have our problems but i mean come on.. u are my best friend ..and we may have some fucked up parents,childhoods,lovers ..(haha j/p)..but we also have eachother and that is so much more than enough...the friendship, no, the bond that me and u have,, no one can ever break..raul>i know we have gone thru so much shit and there is more on its way but were gonna be ok. i promise i love uraul> siempre la tuya..lol

"put that on my nana(rip)..i love u





eye love you all forever <3 <3

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i love charlie [06 May 2005|10:45pm]
[ mood | loved ]

i love charlieso much he is so great...i love you charlieso much you are so great.. i talk to you so much and by now u think i would be tired of charlieyou are so great...what would i do with out you babyi love you




Eye<3Love<3youbabyso much...<3 <3 <3 <3

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i love chris [18 Feb 2005|02:04pm]
[ mood | amused ]

i love chris.

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